If you have to ask yourself these kinds of questions, don't just blindly ask a forum. As friendly, and amazing the people on Skullheart are, you shouldn't ask them, as they are, no offense to anyone, random people counting frames on the internet. Ask either a loved one that you trust deeply, or, better yet, ask yourself. Don't just mope around with angst and depression. If you have to ask these questions, ask yourself, and really think about it. A mopey 'I dunno' isn't going to get you anywhere either. Really think, and I think you'll find a satisfying answer, even if it's also a terrifying one.
Why do I exist? Well... To experience a great, satisfying life with the people I adore, and to find peace in doing the things I love. Like playing and discussing video games. Even though that might seem a little, pfft, I dunno, pathetic to an average person on the street, fuck 'em. It makes me happy.
Find your own answer and make it your own. Maybe then you'll find happiness. Good luck.
And that's probably the most serious I will ever be on Skullheart.